giving thanks

Thanksgiving is the beginning of the Holiday season and once again it starts for me with feelings of sadness. I am not sure why I can't get past this - I have every reason in the world to be happy, and I am happy - so why do I always get in a Holiday funk?? I think because I always reflect on the year and what happened the previous Christmas (or even earlier ones) which include me having my feelings badly hurt by people close to me. Too much heart ache associated with the date? The ghosts of Christmases past need to leave me alone.

That being said, I am grateful this Thanksgiving for my wonderful and beautiful daughter, her good health, intelligence, and sweetness. I am thankful for my amazing, loving husband and for the amazing father that he is. I am also thankful for the rest of my family. I hope they all realize how much they mean to me. I am thankful for my friends, too. Thankful for my health, my dog and my very old cat, my home, neighbors, and most of all, God. There, that feels better already. When I stand back and look at the bigger picture, the pre-xmas blues seem pretty silly.

so... what do you want to talk about?

LOL

I'll say something about today. People should not bring children under 3 to the movies. I don't care if it's even a kid's movie. Kids under 3 are not able to sit quietly for more than an hour. They should not be allowed to ruin the movie for every other kid/person 3 rows ahead and back and to the sides. So, to the stupid woman at the Riverstone, Carmike theater yesterday afternoon: you suck. And to the nice couple of grandparents with their 4 grandsons at the same theater today: you rock. They were the most well-behaved boys I have seen in a group in my life, I'm pretty sure of it. You could see the respect and the love. Keep doing whatever you do. (Just so you all don't think I'm only picking on the stupid ones :P)

Something that means a lot to me

I wrote love on my arm today... just want to show others that I care. Someone always cares.

Depression, addiction, and suicide have all played their parts in my life, whether it's been someone I loved or myself. I will do whatever I can to end the silence and secrets of depression.