giving thanks

Thanksgiving is the beginning of the Holiday season and once again it starts for me with feelings of sadness. I am not sure why I can't get past this - I have every reason in the world to be happy, and I am happy - so why do I always get in a Holiday funk?? I think because I always reflect on the year and what happened the previous Christmas (or even earlier ones) which include me having my feelings badly hurt by people close to me. Too much heart ache associated with the date? The ghosts of Christmases past need to leave me alone.

That being said, I am grateful this Thanksgiving for my wonderful and beautiful daughter, her good health, intelligence, and sweetness. I am thankful for my amazing, loving husband and for the amazing father that he is. I am also thankful for the rest of my family. I hope they all realize how much they mean to me. I am thankful for my friends, too. Thankful for my health, my dog and my very old cat, my home, neighbors, and most of all, God. There, that feels better already. When I stand back and look at the bigger picture, the pre-xmas blues seem pretty silly.