Et tu' Brute' ?

Beware the Ides (15th) or how about any day in March? In recent years March seems to have become a harbinger of bad things. My beloved father-in-law passed on Mar. 9th, 2000 - yesterday was the 9 year anniversary of his death which made for a hard day. We miss him badly. On the 2nd this month, our 20 year old cat died of old age. He breathed his last breath lying on the sofa next to my husband; talk about hard. This alone, keeps us from even thinking about replacing him. It was very hard to watch him deteriorate and fight the death that was coming to claim him. I have a whole new respect for people that have to watch a loved one suffer.. I mean, I knew it was hard, but dang. I hope the cat is the only one I'll have to witness end that way. The 3rd of the month is Sean's birthday - one glimmer of happiness - although his birthday is flagged with the memories of his dad, and now the cat.



And - there's still 21 days left in this month.

a brand new year

got any resolutions? mine are same as always; lose weight & exercise, get more organized, don't fall behind in so many things, blah, blah, etc. well, it's feb. 1st and i haven't made much effort toward any of those. where is my motivation? i can keep adding to the resolution list : visit CT more often, get more quality time with family.. hopefully i will start crossing some of these things off the list.
girl scout cookies sales were not great this year. we sold about the same as last year but the troop as a whole sold less. a true reflection of the economy, i suppose.
annie is enjoying hip-hop dance classes this school year. i can't wait for their recital in the spring; so far the dance moves are top secret and we have no idea what she's learned, she won't show us! she seems to really like it and that's what counts. she also loves being a brownie. we never have to ask her to get ready to go, she's ready! she's doing very well in school, although i wish she would apply herself more. she could easily handle the advanced learning program but avoids it like the plague! i need to come up with some incentive for her to dig in to her education. hmmmm.
i'm excited about planning a baby shower for my best friend. it's been a few years since i've done anything like it and it's fun, especially with great help.

giving thanks

Thanksgiving is the beginning of the Holiday season and once again it starts for me with feelings of sadness. I am not sure why I can't get past this - I have every reason in the world to be happy, and I am happy - so why do I always get in a Holiday funk?? I think because I always reflect on the year and what happened the previous Christmas (or even earlier ones) which include me having my feelings badly hurt by people close to me. Too much heart ache associated with the date? The ghosts of Christmases past need to leave me alone.

That being said, I am grateful this Thanksgiving for my wonderful and beautiful daughter, her good health, intelligence, and sweetness. I am thankful for my amazing, loving husband and for the amazing father that he is. I am also thankful for the rest of my family. I hope they all realize how much they mean to me. I am thankful for my friends, too. Thankful for my health, my dog and my very old cat, my home, neighbors, and most of all, God. There, that feels better already. When I stand back and look at the bigger picture, the pre-xmas blues seem pretty silly.

so... what do you want to talk about?

LOL

I'll say something about today. People should not bring children under 3 to the movies. I don't care if it's even a kid's movie. Kids under 3 are not able to sit quietly for more than an hour. They should not be allowed to ruin the movie for every other kid/person 3 rows ahead and back and to the sides. So, to the stupid woman at the Riverstone, Carmike theater yesterday afternoon: you suck. And to the nice couple of grandparents with their 4 grandsons at the same theater today: you rock. They were the most well-behaved boys I have seen in a group in my life, I'm pretty sure of it. You could see the respect and the love. Keep doing whatever you do. (Just so you all don't think I'm only picking on the stupid ones :P)

Something that means a lot to me

I wrote love on my arm today... just want to show others that I care. Someone always cares.

Depression, addiction, and suicide have all played their parts in my life, whether it's been someone I loved or myself. I will do whatever I can to end the silence and secrets of depression.

Hayden Panettiere PSA: Vote for McCain

He's just like George Bush, except older and with a worse temper.

read more | digg story

i have nothing to say, lol